Mothers

I HAVE been stripped away from all the rights i have as a son. I never had any rights to start with and to end it i have become there worst nightmare. I am known to think ahead of myself to be able to better plan the gaps in the middle. I know my mother has not liked me for the past 12 years i have taken charge of my own thoughts. Ever since we had moved into the new house (F-80/1B block 7) she has always resented me and my freedom to be ME. My first real friend was an evil guy for her, and so the list followed. There is nothing wrong with them MOTHER there is something wrong with your perception of life, that is the difference.

It just seems that i cant make any decisions. I AM FREAKING 23 and its about time that i am treated like one. My decisions are set in stone and my word is my word. I have fell down many times and gotten up many times. No doubt i had a little help from them but still. What i get to hear is "You are the worst son a parent can ever have" Thanks mom and dad i really appreciate that. She made me insecure yet again today and yesterday. I have always done things with confidence and now i know that i have to be more careful and more caucious. What do you mean that your son is the innocent little fellow "DO YOU NOT KNOW ME AT ALL"

Thats a mother for you, hiding her child's every mistake. Here let me clear it out for you i am not as innocent as i seem MOTHER. You can not make my life decisions for me anymore MOTHER, and for the truth i have been quiet for a long time now. I shouldnt be the people pleaser anymore you know why? BECAUSE IT GIVES ME A HEADACHE!!!! I CANT STAND ANYMORE HEADACHES!!!! i get so caught up into the problems that i forget to eat, drink, and think for that matter. I need allt he brain energy i can get. Your child has a dream MOTHER, he wants to be very very successful and yes by success i mean being someone, SOCIALIZING with people so that everyone KNOWS my name in a good way i might add. I cant live my life in a shelter away from everyone and hide myself from the career opportunities that awaits me. I am driven and i am ambitious and I WILL NOT CHANGE. Here is my last stand before i hold my silence.

I feel like shit and right about now i can throw a fit

Once again life has mistreated me. I feel so violated for many reasons. My privacy, my honor, and most of all my love. These are the things that have been violated. Parents all over the world are creating nuisance in the lives of the individuals i know, sometimes i just feel like shooting myself. I feel insecure once again and there is nothing that anyone is doing to help the situation. Feeling insecure again is feeling like shit again and GOD knows i dont want that. I want thorough statements, i want stability, i want a life with less tension and more hapiness, and i want peace in my heart. For once i need peace in my heart all the things should come across as one now please its about time.

I have a solution. A solution that would rid all evils and problems. But no one wants to hear that solution right now ofcourse except for a couple involved. It is life one has to face it. But i tell you this much if things are ruined there will be no mercy for the one who caused such problems, no mercy be it my own blood.

Happy 4th of July everyone!!!

Well well well.... so it seems like i am sitting here as USUAL on the eve of a big night and am just working for money i cant spend time with anyone i want and i especially cant ooohhhh and aaaaahhh on the fireworks.... GREAT isnt it... i get so irritated with these kinds of things and these Idiots for whom i am waiting for are still in class discussing fireworks not realizing that i have to leave so i can get other things doneeeee.... Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! PEOPLE ARE JUST SO STUPID... WHATEVER i will just go home and have my own fun as usual... close my door have my drink and play x-box while i curse at a stupid video game for being my best friend...