What i feel at 4:00 in the evening

My feelings are best described by a song...

Na mein janoon
Na tu Janey
Kesa hai yeh alam
Koi na janey...

Phir kiyun hai yeh tanhai,

Kesi hai yeh ruswai
tum ho gaye ghum
kho gaye hum

Lamhey...

Andhit ho yah tufan ho merey mun mein rahey tu sada
Koi apna ho yah paraya ho usey dhoondoon mein kahan
To kiyun haiyeh tanhai
Kesi hai yeh ruswai..
Tum ho gaye ghum
kho gaye hum

Lamhey... woh ratein koi na janey thi kesi batein woh barsatein
Woh bheegi bheegi yadein
woh bheegi bheegi yadein..

*sigh*

Hazard

My mother came to Hazard when I was just seven
Even then the folks in town said with prejudiced eyes
That boy's not right
Three years ago when I came to know Mary
First time that someone looked beyond the rumors and the lies
And saw the man inside
We used to walk down by the river
She loved to watch the sun go down
We used to walk along the river
And dream our way out of this town


No one understood what I felt for Mary
No one cared until the night she went out walking aloneAnd never came home
Man with a badge came knocking next morning
Here was I surrounded by a thousand fingers suddenly
Pointed right at me
I swear I left her by the river
I swear I left her safe and sound
I need to make it to the river
And leave this old Nebraska town

I think about my life gone by
How it's done me wrong
There's no escape for me this time
All of my rescues are gone, long gone

Richard Marx

All my rescues are gone....

These games you play

I am sick of your games i am sick of being treated as nothing. You have given me life and now you want to take it away from me. Dont play games with me anymore, cause i am sick of it sick till the stomach. You lying pieces of shit. You hide everything from me, now its my turn see what a changed man i become i have had it with this niceness everytime. so in all honesty and due respect fuck off. You think i dont know what the fuck is going on, check your records and youll know how many times i have been right. It will come to you... three times i will make it happen.

You gave me tears in my eyes right now tears i am having a hard time shedding cause i will not shed tears anymore....