It just doesnt matter

So many things running through my head right now... anger, hate, love, respect, self discipline, fun, party, school, friends.... i dont know what to say even though there is so much to say... cause i guess i think it just doesnt matter....

Four Brothers

You know sometimes i always feel that it would have been so great if i had a brother of my own. From the start there would have been so many things that would have been different. I dont care a younger or older brother i would have assumed the responsibility of either one. I would have shared my toys with you i would have fought with you i would have protected you from everything and everything.

Just the two of us.... we could have gone to a bar together talking about god knows what... you driving me or me driving you back depending who has had a little too much to drink. I feel like i am making all the right connections for nothing.. when i look back i remember the time when i made the connections hoping that one of these days my mom will be pregnent with my brother... how could i have been so stupid!!! i remember i even used to talk to you? didnt you hear me? you used to talk back to me console me in the worst of times calm me down when i was very angry with my eyes blood shot red... all i heard was "please dont"

I remember the time when you used to advice me things about girls.. how i changed my walk and the way i talked was initiated by you... you are in my heart and you know what there is no one who can replace you EVER.... it has been a while i have talked to you... maybe you are mad at me, maybe you are away... but i know you are still here... in my mind and in my heart.

visiting

Pakistan is a great country hehehehe... a lot to do there this time i go back, the plan is still a bit rough on the edges but i can see it happenening... my brother is coming with me... lots to do... *he smiles in a suspicious way* my friends have now spread there roots and now its time to put them up against their offers.... lots of fun waiting for me...

Humans are stupid, Part 2

Humans are victims of their own stupidity. Humans have the tendency of not thinking before they take any action when they are in the moment, cause they feel they dont need to. The power of their will they feel is extra ordinary as a result of that stupidity they get into trouble for themselves and find someone to blame although the fault is their own. Hence, Humans are victims of their own stupidity...

It is time

It is time.

Hypocrites i swear!!!

People are such hypocrites. Everything is up to their moods "Oh i think we wont celebrate eid today because of the tragedy that has hapened." I totally support that but see that doesn't sound so convincing when it is followed by "We are going to a party for New Year's and we are going to havea lot of fun." That is the situation that is being faced by many as i see it. And i think they are all hypocrites to have avoided a religious ceremony and embrace a non-religious ceremony. There is nothing wrong in the picture but see consistency is something that one should have in their minds, but then again we are all human beings and are allowed to be selffish and stupid.

Love

There was a time when a guy was in love. The girl and the guy got engaged and the guy would look forward to spend time with her. Since she was working and fridays were officially off during those years he would look forward for fridays. "I cant wait for friday to come through" he said. "Some one is stupid enough to think that fridays are the best" she replied. He didnt get any of her statements till the time came for baat paki. It took his sisters 4 hours to return home that night and the reason being the girl had food poisoning and was rushed to the hospital. When the guy made an unexpected visit into the hospital he found out that the girl had poisoned herself cause she loved some one else and the guy was not aware of it. The third person she was in love with was in her office and it all made sense now to the guy.

He found out about his brother fixing him up with the girl since the girl was the daughter of a the guy's brother. She had told her father about the affair, but he did not listen and proceeded with the arrangement. At this point the guy was hurt really bad. It was to such an extent where all he can think of was work and money. All he said to the girl was "The least you could have done was write it on a piece of paper and told me so i could have backed out of it." He felt guilty for the whole situation happening in the first place.

This is a true story. Take my word for it.

Some food for thought

I remember i used to listen to this song when i felt something, this one particular feeling... amazing how history comes back at you...

Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness

Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost

Yeah, thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Yeah, women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean you'll know, you'll know...

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
Well It's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell
Dreams of loneliness

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Yeah, women they will come and they will go,
When the rain washes you clean you'll know...

You'll know, (the heartbeat drives you mad,) you'll know, (remember what you had)You'll know...

--- The Corrs.

Got my eyes on you!!

I dedicate the following to someone special, cause i cant stop thinking of you as i listen to this song:

You can tell your girlfriend's got me,
It's about time to get rowdy,
You know I wanna work that body,
You work it over here,
You can be my brown-eyed beauty,
And I bet you see right through me,
You can do anything to me,

Oh-ohYou're so beautiful,
Tonight anything is possible,
You know I just can't get enough, of your love,
So give it upGot my eyes on you,
Cos you bring that back to me,
Got my eyes on you,
You know where i'm gonna be,Got my eyes on you,
And I see you checkin' me,
Got my eyes on you (oo-woo)And I like what I seeHold on ,
hold onYou can tell anyone about it,
Show it off, don't need to hide it,
Come and get a little bit excited,
excited over here,
Don't stop baby girl no don't stop,
I know you really like it when you're on top,
Don't be shy just get up,
Come on girlYou're so beautiful,
Tonight anything is possible,
You know I just can't get enough of your love,
So give it upuh-ohGot my eyes on you,
Cos you bring that back to me,
Got my eyes on you,
You know where i'm gonna be,
Got my eyes on you,
And I see you checkin' me,
Got my eyes on you (oo-woo)
And I like what I see