A knife or a gun?

I have decided to delete everything that had been written in this blog just because i found myself to be a hypocrite writting and doing the same thing i hate the most. My question to all: There will be a time when you are going to get shivers and chills like i do what are whom are you going to trust then? My hint: Trust is not something that is developed easily it is developed over time. Look out for the answer...

My wish

My one wish you want to fulfill. It is complicated, it is very bold and rigorous are you sure youll be able to do it?

11/15/05
"oh you are a saint!!!"

11/12/05
"thank you young fellow no one does anything like this these days, especially for a stranger."

11/06/05
"i wish i had a son like you"

10/27/05

"why is it that you have a low face? A smile like your should always be revealed not hidden behind a sad face."


one wish?

yes

and it will be fulfilled?

yes

Then take my sould if not my life away...

why?

lets just say others' happiness depends on it.

Crappy situation

So what does a person do when the family he or she vouches for isnt really a family, rather they are blood sucking and selffish maniacs? I am not talking about immediate family here mind you. I am talking about the extended family the people who are nothing but selffish mother fuckers, the people who forget what we do for them, the people who are going to cut your love into two sides. I hate them i just hate them. 2 calls a day i remind you, 2 calls a day, and now it is nothing a day instead ignoring is all i get. Well now that they know the result i guess they dont need the staircase anymore. Thought i can change that in my family but i guess some assholes never change like father like son. mother fucker!!!

The only way to change a person like this is to grab them by their necks hold a gun to their head and tell them your point of view and maybe they will change if not then "waste 'em" is what i would say cause it really doesnt make a difference to the world since there are thousands of blood sucking parasites out there. If only i had a clone i would just focus on studies and let my clone do the handling of these incompetent fools. Your father is a fucking cheat asswipe and you want me to vouch for you is what i shouls have said, but something inside me thought i can make a difference why be like them when i can show them what good family does.

The fact is, a difference will be made soon!!! one will see how its done the old school way i see the fucking bastard shortly and will take care of business when i do and i swear on my mother he will know what is on my mind!!!

Tired

I feel tired. I feel tensed. And this all for no good reason. I just woke up after a 10 hour nap and i still feel tired. What is wrong with me? Things piss me off easily. This was never the case i think my mind needs a lot of rest i guess thats it. I need a long rest, so close your eyes and never wake up.

Thats life right!!!

I am beginning to think that i have missed out on so much in my life!!! things that i could have done but i cant anymore cause time has passed. All because of my social status or my family, you know how great would it have been if i had a graduation ceremony or when we would go for vacation to switzerland, or being able to sit with my entire family without any tension between families. There are several more things i can put in here... just thinking in general. WOW!!!!

a trip to www.mohobbat.com

Kabhi to ki hogi suraj ne chand se mohabbat
Tabhi to chand mein daag hai,
Mumkin hai ki chand ne ki hogi bewafai
Tabhi to suraj mein aag hai.

Oh man!! i cant believe i am posting this on my blog!!! but oh well...