Its not good

Its all so sad when you really look at it... Neglecting the love, support, and care for the ones who really matter in life. Yes, there are times when i am not happy with myself in terms of what i do... i sit down with a glass of whisky, neat, and a cancer stick thinking about what i can do about it. I dont run away from my problems or ignore them for that matter as if they never existed. I am a fighter, i fight them... i resolve them till these differences are only in the background and later feels like they never existed.

Never thought this day would come... i can feel it in my guts that something really bad will come of it. We make choices that are many a times the wrong ones, and it is only this one helping hand that cushions us from a big disaster. Getting annoyed and anger are not the best of solutions. To be an adult you have to look beyond the obvious and i believe that is what i see in very few these days. The ability to take up the responsibility of the loved ones no matter how much they hate it. Well ofcourse, the first ammendment is going to protect you, i look back 15 years from now when they took care of us... no matter how annoying we were, "i want this for my birthday" the look in his eyes as he looks at the price tag the sleepless nights they pull so that we get what we want and now this... i am ashamed at myself for being like this... starting off to be able to make them proud and all i do is complain how annoying they can be... What about the time when i KNEW there were tough times and i harrassed them about what i want and still got away with things. Oh these flashbacks of my birthdays are killing me... what have we turned into... vicious monsters who are cold hearted and care only for ourselves.... if it werent for them we wouldnt be here in the first place... we are ungrateful, and sound condescending, and thinking they have nothing better to do but to ruin our lives... After all that we have put THEM through not what THEY have put us through cause they have not put us through anything.... YET!!!

I guess you never find out what you have lost till you actually lose it and the security that they will always be around should never be counted on... live through these days and look up in the sky and take a deep breath and smile for that has always worked for me... Goodluck!!!