A letter to the beloved

Dear........&....... ,

I wish you would understand that i don't agree with your beliefs anymore. It is quite safe to say that i have had it with you, and what you "think." Because i am sick of explaining to you every little thing and having to repeat myself knowing that you are being stubborn. I have hated stubborness and have tried very hard to get rid of your stubborness hence i have now lifted my white flag as i surrender. Dont get me wrong i dont surrender to you i surrender from my responsibility of explaining you things. You can think whatever you want to think, for now i know what was being planned for me. I was supposed to be given the pressure of life that you had faced and in that pressure i was to succumb to you and what you want of me, i cannot tolerate being shot down and discouraged and unsupported. Therefore, i say to you please let me be. Do not interfere, as i sit here tensed, i sleep in a tensed mode, i dream in a tensed mode, and i even SHIT in a tensed mode.

I feel bad that i am not able to function properly in a normal house environment. It is only because you can't provide me that normal environment. You have drained every bit of energy out of me and now i am trying to recover that energy. Fine, go ahead dont speak with me, but your ignorance astounds me, and it is my Job as your only son to tell you that.

Don't cry now. I have cried all my life, all my life. You remember the time i would lock my door and turn the deck up so loud it was only because i was crying my heart out for not having the things i want in life. It is my chance to get those things, and instead of being supportive you are pulling me down asking me to come back to my senses and stop dreaming about my luxurious life i want?????!!!!!! that is just pure ignorance to me.