The thought of life

i thought three days ago that all this laugh is going to relate to something bad but that night nothing happened the night after that i laughed again afraid of something bad happening to me i stopped immediately, and then let myself go in the arms of happiness where my friends made me laugh and i didnt care a damn... but then why is it that i have tears in my eues today?
i face these tears with a deep sorrow,
burning my soul leaving behind a deep hollow,
proud of the gift i have i try to bury this pain,
hoping there is no greater good.... no greater gain.

Tears are everywhere, but the best thing is how you keep this away how you keep the sorrow away from your life how you can keep yourself happy and i have found a way that is suitable to all.... bury it bury it int he deepest of your hearts dont let anyone see it no one can see the pain if it is buried but for that you have to a huge heart where else will you bury them? in your mind? oh that is not the way to survive naturally... bury your regrets, your pains, your sorrows... but be true to each other... honesty is what keeps me alive i am being honest aint i? i hope i am its not like i cheated, or murdered anyone.... i just.....

i dont know... oh shit i have to go i must but i shouldnt but i must